The Days

I want my dog back now. 

This has gone on long enough.

Something must have gone wrong

and the world is ignoring my sadness.

She passed away in spring so already 

we missed the summer together 

and it’s well into fall. She shouldn’t 

have missed barking at the kids 

in their costumes last week. 

Thanksgiving and Christmas won’t be the same.

She’s one of the family and how can the world 

be happy without her? It’s hard 

to think of her wandering in all that sky

with no one to help her cross the street. 

Without her toys, how can she 

play among the stars?

I didn’t consent to such a long absence.

I never agreed to forever.

Someone put an end to this absurdity 

and bring her home to me. 

The days are getting shorter now. 

J. Kyle Kimberlin

November 2025

One Hundred Years of Meh

I just finished watching the last of the eight episodes of One Hundred Years of Solitude on Netflix, based on the novel by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. This is my favorite novel of all time, a work of surpassing genius. So was the TV show, if it hadn’t been based on this book.

Everything about the show was excellent – the acting, directing, sets, costumes, lighting, music , and editing were all fantastic. It looks just like the book looks in my mind. But it simply wasn’t faithful to the story. So much was left out and changed as to give the audience the entirely wrong impression of what Marquez was saying about post-colonialism, among many other things.

Once of the main themes of the novel is the circular turning of time, an abstraction which is hardly well-developed if you shift events around out of order.

The banana company was left out entirely, as was the government’s fruit company massacre. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg of obliterated subplots and relationships. I think it’s safe to say the last 20% of the novel was simply amputated and left to float down the river of shining stones.

If I didn’t know and love the book, I’d give this series 5 stars; since I sort of do, it’s a generous 3.5. Lo siento.

Terrible Things

“Terrible things are happening outside.

Poor helpless people are being dragged out of their homes.

Families are torn apart. Men, women, and children are separated.

Children come home from school to find that their parents have disappeared.”

– Diary of Anne Frank

January 13, 1943

Therefore

Lemony Snicket (Daniel Handler) wrote a relatively unknown book called The Beatrice Letters, which I haven’t read and can’t find (maybe used?) in the usual places where I find books. I’ve only seen it reviewed; nevertheless, it inspired the poem below. Intertextuality is hilarious, isn’t it?

Here is a brief discussion of The Beatrice Letters, by one of the best booktubers out there. I mean out here, because I’m out here now, in the interwebs. Cool.

And here’s my little poem.

Ergo

I will love you even if you
never know that I exist,
if it never occurs to you
that I should have existed
but never did.

I will love you even if I
realize I never existed
and nothing that exists
around me – or doesn’t – is real.

I will love you if we never meet
because we won’t.

J. Kyle Kimberlin
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It is just dawn

I’ve been thinking about thinking and maybe breathing some life back into the old dead blog.

Do you ever think that Earth might be the only place in the whole universe where anything thinks? We are each a life, rising up like a wave, rolling, crashing, receding. Enlightenment comes when the wave realizes it is ocean, yes? So here we are, made of stars and driving our meatcycles around on a single planet orbiting one star among billions in a galaxy among trillions of galaxies. And for all we know, this is the only place where all that big banging has given rise to consciousness, where the universe has the opportunity to consider itself.

Of course, it’s not easy. A single finite and incredibly fragile life has to be very advanced – intelligent – to know how stupid it is. And in order to get good at doing anything, that life has to nearly perfect a skill set just barely surpassing the skills to know it’s not good at that thing yet. (I’ll let you know when I think I’m any good at writing.) It’s infinitely easier to be terrible at that thing and think you’re great at it. Which explains at least half the human population and the entirety of its propaganda, laws, and the domestication of humans.

Anyway, I have poems, a few. Later, but soon. Also if you see this post, could you click Like, even if you don’t? Just so I’ll know somebody else is out there. Otherwise, how do I know I’m not the only wave on the beach, just the same wave rolling over and over? … It’s the phenomenology of Sisyphus, fam.

In the meantime, today is the birthday of William Faulkner, my all-time favorite writer. Yes, maybe even considering Gabriel Garcia Marquez. OK, maybe they’re tied. And also Cormac McCarthy.

“It is just dawn, daylight: that gray and lonely suspension filled with the peaceful and tentative waking of birds. The air, inbreathed, is like spring water. He breathes deep and slow, feeling with each breath himself diffuse in the natural grayness, becoming one with loneliness and quiet that has never known fury or despair. “That was all I wanted,” he thinks, in a quiet and slow amazement. “That was all, for thirty years. That didn’t seem to be a whole lot to ask in thirty years.”

― William Faulkner, Light in August

“When the shadow of the sash appeared on the curtains it was between seven and eight o’ clock and then I was in time again, hearing the watch. It was Grandfather’s and when Father gave it to me he said I give you the mausoleum of all hope and desire; it’s rather excruciating-ly apt that you will use it to gain the reducto absurdum of all human experience which can fit your individual needs no better than it fitted his or his father’s. I give it to you not that you may remember time, but that you might forget it now and then for a moment and not spend all your breath trying to conquer it. Because no battle is ever won he said. They are not even fought. The field only reveals to man his own folly and despair, and victory is an illusion of philosophers and fools.”
― William Faulkner, The Sound and the Fury

Yesterday

It’s national poetry month and I have some things indolently percolating in the notebook but nothing ready to post just yet. But the month is about to end and I’m nothing if not sensitive to the pressures of the calendar. So here’s a better poem, but the great mystical poet W.S. Merwin. It’s been living in the back of my mind since the 1980s, when it first occurred to me that it applies to me. I was in college studying literature when it was published so I probably saw it hot off the press. Those were days in ways that today and yesterday were not, if you know what I mean.

https://poets.org/poem/yesterday

I’ll try to get one of those new poems up by the weekend but no promises. I don’t think any of us is responding well to pressure these days. We know the consequences of our actions only in the protractions of time.

Things and Stuff

Things and stuff on my mind.

  • Survival mode
  • Shared life/Private life balance (boundaries)
  • Mindfulness in the Midst of Calamity
  • The (unconditional) Beauty of Others
  • Love in the Time of Corona
  • War and Chaos
  • The Persistent Illusion of Time

“I am old, Gandalf. I don’t look it, but I am beginning to feel it in my heart of hearts. Well-preserved indeed! Why, I feel all thin, sort of stretched, if you know what I mean: like butter that has been scraped over too much bread. That can’t be right. I need a change, or something.”
– J.R.R. Tolkien

What have you been pondering?

Yes, Virginia …

DEAR EDITOR: I am 8 years old.
Some of my little friends say there is no Santa Claus.
Papa says, ‘If you see it in THE SUN it’s so.’
Please tell me the truth; is there a Santa Claus?

VIRGINIA O’HANLON.
115 WEST NINETY-FIFTH STREET.

VIRGINIA, your little friends are wrong. They have been affected by the skepticism of a skeptical age. They do not believe except they see. They think that nothing can be which is not comprehensible by their little minds. All minds, Virginia, whether they be men’s or children’s, are little. In this great universe of ours man is a mere insect, an ant, in his intellect, as compared with the boundless world about him, as measured by the intelligence capable of grasping the whole of truth and knowledge.

Yes, VIRGINIA, there is a Santa Claus. He exists as certainly as love and generosity and devotion exist, and you know that they abound and give to your life its highest beauty and joy. Alas! how dreary would be the world if there were no Santa Claus. It would be as dreary as if there were no VIRGINIAS. There would be no childlike faith then, no poetry, no romance to make tolerable this existence. We should have no enjoyment, except in sense and sight. The eternal light with which childhood fills the world would be extinguished.

Not believe in Santa Claus! You might as well not believe in fairies! You might get your papa to hire men to watch in all the chimneys on Christmas Eve to catch Santa Claus, but even if they did not see Santa Claus coming down, what would that prove? Nobody sees Santa Claus, but that is no sign that there is no Santa Claus. The most real things in the world are those that neither children nor men can see. Did you ever see fairies dancing on the lawn? Of course not, but that’s no proof that they are not there. Nobody can conceive or imagine all the wonders there are unseen and unseeable in the world.

You may tear apart the baby’s rattle and see what makes the noise inside, but there is a veil covering the unseen world which not the strongest man, nor even the united strength of all the strongest men that ever lived, could tear apart. Only faith, fancy, poetry, love, romance, can push aside that curtain and view and picture the supernal beauty and glory beyond. Is it all real? Ah, VIRGINIA, in all this world there is nothing else real and abiding.

No Santa Claus! Thank God! he lives, and he lives forever. A thousand years from now, Virginia, nay, ten times ten thousand years from now, he will continue to make glad the heart of childhood.