story submitted

This morning, I submitted a little story to a contest. If I win, I get a major award. I should say if it wins. That would be nice.

Would you like to read my little story? Very well. It’s called A Shadow of Himself.

An excerpt:

The sun is going down. The lights in the station and the street come on. Now he stands and leaves his bag on the ground and his old coat on the bench. He wants a little more of all of it, this place where he has grown and been loved, lost everything, and found this hour of peace as the daylight fades.

more of a little heaven

If you’re checking out the chapter I posted last night, I’ve updated it. I found a mistake in location. I had moved my characters out of a room into a hallway, then had one of them still sitting in a chair, back in the room. So I fixed that.

Also, I updated the page design to make it more readable.

Link

invisible

Well, I was just checking out the stats and it looks like readership visits to the old blog are trending downward lately. It’s my fault. I haven’t been writing much for Metaphor lately. It’s partly because I’ve been writing a lot about the Warrior imagery and posting it elsewhere, and partly because I’ve been posting more political stuff elsewhere, but mostly because I’ve been working a lot on the novel.

I read something interesting the other day, about how poetry is attire for emotion. That makes sense to me for creative writing in general – at least the kinds of things that I like to write. But you know what works better as an analogy for me? There’s a scene in one of the Invisible Man movies – maybe in all of them and cartoon versions too – where the invisible guy gets spayed with water, and you can see his form because you can see the water on him.

I think writing is a lot like that. I can’t really make you see what I see. But if I dress it in words, or spray it with a fine mist of expression and get the light to hit it right, maybe you can glimpse it running – otherwise naked – into the distance.

So sometime this weekend, I’ll try to post a new chapter or something, so you can see what I’ve been up to.

a hundred ways

There must be a hundred ways this scene can begin, and I’ve tried every one of them in the past week, except the right one. There is a right one, you know.

I need to have the two boys in the front yard or on the front step under the hanging fuchsias, or among the potted nasturtiums or something, when the explosion happens. But eating lunch? It seems like way too many scenes in this book start with them eating lunch.

It’s 1:10am. The lamp on the piano just went out. It’s on a timer.

OK, so it’s after lunch. move them to the back yard, nearer the barn. That’s where it blows up. What does? Hang on, we’ll get there.

the condition of being flesh

There’s been a lot of the sharing of opinion in my valley lately. More about that here. Folks are sharing what they think. I appreciate this because we are not entitled to know one another’s opinions. Sharing them is a gift, a glimpse into the mysterious process of becoming who are in the process of Being.

“Be thou being made holy, even as thy Father in Heaven is holy.”

Late last week, I sent out some opinion of my own. I wasn’t hoping for anyone’s agreement. I just thought some folks – particularly those now living away from our home town – might like to take a whiff of this suspicious stuff that we found in the back of our collective fridge.

The responses, and the sharing around town and on the phone and on message boards – has been very interesting. Got me thinking about communication again.

I fear that without sharing, we are all locked away and apart in our little rooms, in silence. But communication is so hard. We open our windows to feel upon our spirits the rare press and flutter of transpersonal discourse. We pretend to be amused or enraged, saddened or uplifted, by a presence in the dim distance of another of our kind. But the human mind is a singular entity and there is no unseen, ephemeral organ of sympathetic, shared neurology at work.

We long for the thoughts and expressions of others to impact us. We pray that some line of poetry will make us weep for beauty, that a joke will force laughter from our mouths, or that some perceived insult will propel us to indignation. We pretend: We say “No one can offend me unless I let him, and please God let him, because between grief and nothing I will choose grief.” But in the end, each man is alone with the static in his skull.

Some of us butt our heads and hearts repeatedly against the intransigent carapace of solitude, tacking lines upon the millions of lines of hopeless, infinite literature.

Others, perhaps as a means of self defense to such futility, resort to censorship. (“Hey, you can’t say that! You can’t put that there!” … Remember the Christmas trees removed from the Seattle airport last year? … Who can blame them?)

It is all so difficult, this life, this intractable Being. In the words of Stegner:

I am concerned with gloomier matters: the condition of being flesh, susceptible to pain, infected with consciousness and the consciousness of consciousness, doomed to death and the awareness of death. My life stains the air around me. I am a tea bag left too long in the cup, and my steepings grow darker and bitterer.


So I envy those who sport a fine, clear, dogma. I used to have my own, but it has drifted away like fog on the Rincon. I just don’t know anymore. It seems like every damn story has two sides to it. And I fail to trust my own subjectivity, let alone that of others. I find myself grasping for syllogisms which have more premises than conclusions. And often I find myself like Diogenes The Cynic – Diogenes the Doggish – dipped in darkness, feeling for the light switch and muttering,

He who thinks he knows does not know. He who knows he does not know, knows.


So as much as I’m into the Progressive movement and its concomitant Change, some days our society is one big soggy, stinky diaper of existential angst. Then I don’t know if we’re up to the task of changing this.

While we ponder how long we can all hold our noses, I refer you to the words of The Chink:

“I believe in everything; nothing is sacred, I believe in nothing; everything is sacred, …Ha Ha Ho Ho Hee Hee.”

intercourse

Now that I have your attention, I have a bone to pick with my readership. (Excluding those of you with whom I’ve met personally this week.)

Back on Monday, I posted a set of questions for writers and poets to answer. Nobody responded, despite the fact that my blog was visited about 60 times since then.

Not just idle curiosity but a means of networking, to share possibly some better ways of doing what we do with our creative lives, would be my point. (Now there’s some fun syntax.)

I am a poet. I’ve been writing poetry since about 1985. I’m also a professional writer in other genres. As a technical writer, I’ve got some game when it comes to the geek’s side of the writing biz. But …

“He who thinks he knows does not know. He who knows he does not know, knows.”
– Joseph Campbell

I want to learn from you. And I’m completely willing to share everything I think I know and know I don’t know. No charge, for whatever it may be worth.

When I post my own writing and no one comments, I can only assume it must have blown baby chunks. So back to the editing desk it goes – or to the drawer. No one wants to be cruel and I appreciate that. But I’m amazed that here we have a small group of poets and writers who don’t want to talk about themselves. We poets and writers – especially bloggers – Love to talk about ourselves.

I would post creative work in process here a lot more often, if I got more response to it when I do.

I can take a hint: I have not sold the proverbial bike shop in hopes of taking wing. But I feel like I’m hiding my own Easter eggs here, folks. He said, baldly mixing metaphors.

This blog is about writing. It’s about the creative impulse, the dim vision, the rare visceral pangs of clarity, the technique, the process, the dream deferred and supplanted, and the warm hard copy received in lieu of payment.

If you’re looking for Dilbert, you’re in the wrong place.

If you’re interested in writing let’s have a little intercourse, shall we not?

in·ter·course ɪntərˌkɔrs, -ˌkoʊrs/ Pronunciation Key – [in-ter-kawrs, -kohrs] –noun

1.

dealings or communication between individuals, groups, countries, etc.

2.

interchange of thoughts, feelings, etc.

How do you do it?

Are you a writer? So am I. And I want to ask you questions. I want to get down to brass tacks, or nuts and bolts or something with you. I have been looking everywhere, trying to learn the secrets of sanity. I want to know how you write.

I’m not talking about inspiration here. I don’t want to know – at least not today – how you finally get those elusive drops of blood to spring forth from your indehiscent brow. I need to know how you get your ideas into the world on any given day, and keep them from dissolving into the dew.

Here are my questions. If you will answer them for me, I will reciprocate in an impending post.

  1. What software do you use?
  2. When you are creating a longer piece – such as a novel – which has parts or sections such as chapters, do you keep the parts in separate software files or keep them together in one?
  3. If you keep them separate, do you at some point merge them into a single document, prior to printing?
  4. Do you work on one computer or with more than one, such as a desktop and a laptop?
  5. If you use two or more, how do you keep your working files synchronized and prevent them from getting all confused?
  6. Where do you like to work? Describe your favorite and least favorite places to write, and circumstances such as music playing, noisy coffeehouse, library, freeway underpass, etc.
  7. Do you work best at certain times of day or under certain circumstances? Does this vary; and if so, why?
  8. Do you have to enforce your need for solitude or quiet on family, friends, or neighbors? If so, how? And how do they react? Are you successful?
  9. When you are away from your writing place/s, what steps if any do you take to be prepared if inspiration strikes or something notable appears? For example, do you carry a notebook?
  10. Please share any thoughts or tips on organization or productive work habits that come to mind.

Please enter your responses in Comments in any format that suits you. Number them if it pleases you. Or respond by e-mail. Let me know if I can quote you on this blog, and if you prefer to be quoted anonymously. Thank you!

denouement

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Denouement

It is a splendid little word, isn’t it? Don’t ya just love the way it rolls off the tongue? Yep, and it’s French, you know. Literally, it means unknotting or unwinding. In a story, it’s the outcome of dramatic action, following the climax. The fate of the characters is revealed, harmony is restored, destinies are settled.

Well, Marty finally cracked last night, and spilled the beans. I’ve been waiting too patiently for too long for him to finally tell me what becomes of this little family I’ve created, and of their lands and lives, so I can write it down and get on with my own life. (Or perhaps I don’t so much write it down as type it up. And I mean to get on with my life by doing so, not afterwards.)

I’m afraid things don’t turn out too happily for our hero, as the new millennium staggers out into daylight, squinting and blinking at the sharp San Joaquin Valley sun. Marty finds himself cut off, adrift, and forced to face, literally, the means and instrument of his family’s greatest grief. As if Sisyphus, finally relieved of his burden, is made to sit and stare at The Stone, in the front yard of his house.

Why am I being so obtuse? Because you gotta buy the book, dudes. After I finish writing it. Well, a few of you will get free copies, but you still gotta wait. Except for this guy. In the mean time, you can learn more about the novel here.

writing is work?

Work, you say? Oh balls, I was afraid of that.

In response to my last post – bemoaning the dichotomy between the dream and the practice of creating – Joe Bunting has left a comment. (Thanks!) It links to a short article by Ben Stein, of Ferris Bueller fame. It’s good – so good that I had to move it to the main thread so you don’t miss it.

I know a lot of really successful people — in finance, in government, in politics, in Hollywood, in journalism, in literature.

Their common denominator is a modicum of talent and a capacity and an eagerness — not just a willingness, but an eagerness — to work like Trojans to get ahead. I don’t know of one really successful, famous man or woman who didn’t work insanely hard to get there and to stay there.

Doggone it. I guess I need to either learn to rap or sit down and write.

fait acompli

Writing the last page of the first draft is the most enjoyable moment in writing. It’s one of the most enjoyable moments in life, period.

Nicholas Sparks, author (1965- )

Two things jumped out at me from this quote. First, that Sparks is the same age as my brother. And it always galls me to no end to see that writers younger than me are several laps ahead in the writing game. I would have guessed the third digit in that year might have been a 4. Dang.

Second, he’s right. There is a great satisfaction to getting to the end of a work, making a beautiful, powerful end to it, and looking back at its totality. Alas, it doesn’t often work out that way, does it? I frequently find the end fairly soon after the beginning, or somewhere in the middle, as a means of knowing where I’m going. I’ve heard this is not uncommon.

But good on ya, Nick!