a hundred ways

There must be a hundred ways this scene can begin, and I’ve tried every one of them in the past week, except the right one. There is a right one, you know.

I need to have the two boys in the front yard or on the front step under the hanging fuchsias, or among the potted nasturtiums or something, when the explosion happens. But eating lunch? It seems like way too many scenes in this book start with them eating lunch.

It’s 1:10am. The lamp on the piano just went out. It’s on a timer.

OK, so it’s after lunch. move them to the back yard, nearer the barn. That’s where it blows up. What does? Hang on, we’ll get there.

the government is there to help

That title had to get your attention, right? Of course you don’t believe it, but here’s a helpful little tip:

Telephone numbers placed on the National Do Not Call Registry will remain on it permanently due to the Do-Not-Call Improvement Act of 2007, which became law in February 2008.

Read more about it at http://www.ftc.gov/opa/2008/04/dncfyi.shtm.

I found this at www.donotcall.gov, when I stopped by to update the registration for my phone.

choose life

I got an e-mail from my Mom this morning, one of those lists of folksy wisdom. But this one is better than most. And it doesn’t end with “Dance like nobody’s watching,” and implore me to forward it to everyone in my address book. I like it.

It’s by Regina Brett, a cancer survivor and columnist for the Cleveland Plain Dealer. Here’s a sample, and when you click on to check out the rest of her list, note #18.

“27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.”

Link: 45 life lessons and 5 to grow on

the condition of being flesh

There’s been a lot of the sharing of opinion in my valley lately. More about that here. Folks are sharing what they think. I appreciate this because we are not entitled to know one another’s opinions. Sharing them is a gift, a glimpse into the mysterious process of becoming who are in the process of Being.

“Be thou being made holy, even as thy Father in Heaven is holy.”

Late last week, I sent out some opinion of my own. I wasn’t hoping for anyone’s agreement. I just thought some folks – particularly those now living away from our home town – might like to take a whiff of this suspicious stuff that we found in the back of our collective fridge.

The responses, and the sharing around town and on the phone and on message boards – has been very interesting. Got me thinking about communication again.

I fear that without sharing, we are all locked away and apart in our little rooms, in silence. But communication is so hard. We open our windows to feel upon our spirits the rare press and flutter of transpersonal discourse. We pretend to be amused or enraged, saddened or uplifted, by a presence in the dim distance of another of our kind. But the human mind is a singular entity and there is no unseen, ephemeral organ of sympathetic, shared neurology at work.

We long for the thoughts and expressions of others to impact us. We pray that some line of poetry will make us weep for beauty, that a joke will force laughter from our mouths, or that some perceived insult will propel us to indignation. We pretend: We say “No one can offend me unless I let him, and please God let him, because between grief and nothing I will choose grief.” But in the end, each man is alone with the static in his skull.

Some of us butt our heads and hearts repeatedly against the intransigent carapace of solitude, tacking lines upon the millions of lines of hopeless, infinite literature.

Others, perhaps as a means of self defense to such futility, resort to censorship. (“Hey, you can’t say that! You can’t put that there!” … Remember the Christmas trees removed from the Seattle airport last year? … Who can blame them?)

It is all so difficult, this life, this intractable Being. In the words of Stegner:

I am concerned with gloomier matters: the condition of being flesh, susceptible to pain, infected with consciousness and the consciousness of consciousness, doomed to death and the awareness of death. My life stains the air around me. I am a tea bag left too long in the cup, and my steepings grow darker and bitterer.


So I envy those who sport a fine, clear, dogma. I used to have my own, but it has drifted away like fog on the Rincon. I just don’t know anymore. It seems like every damn story has two sides to it. And I fail to trust my own subjectivity, let alone that of others. I find myself grasping for syllogisms which have more premises than conclusions. And often I find myself like Diogenes The Cynic – Diogenes the Doggish – dipped in darkness, feeling for the light switch and muttering,

He who thinks he knows does not know. He who knows he does not know, knows.


So as much as I’m into the Progressive movement and its concomitant Change, some days our society is one big soggy, stinky diaper of existential angst. Then I don’t know if we’re up to the task of changing this.

While we ponder how long we can all hold our noses, I refer you to the words of The Chink:

“I believe in everything; nothing is sacred, I believe in nothing; everything is sacred, …Ha Ha Ho Ho Hee Hee.”

gin, tv, and time

A really clever read:

If I had to pick the critical technology for the 20th century, the bit of social lubricant without which the wheels would’ve come off the whole enterprise, I’d say it was the sitcom. Starting with the Second World War a whole series of things happened–rising GDP per capita, rising educational attainment, rising life expectancy and, critically, a rising number of people who were working five-day work weeks. For the first time, society forced onto an enormous number of its citizens the requirement to manage something they had never had to manage before–free time.

And what did we do with that free time? Well, mostly we spent it watching TV.

Link

the world

The world is a story we tell ourselves about the world.
-Vikram Chandra, novelist (b. 1961)

OK, Vikram, mon semblable, where are you going with this? I call you my familiar because we were born the same year. You haven’t wasted as much time as I, watching TV, have you?

I think I understand. We see the world as through a glass, darkly, and have to spatter the fleeting reality with droplets of the human, to prevent us seeing through the truth entirely.

Perhaps your observation is more literary than philosophical: the writer’s task to put the world into context. I don’t know, but it seems more shallow. In any case, I keep coming back to Wright:

I lean back, as the evening darkens and comes on.
A chicken hawk floats over, looking for home.
I have wasted my life.


One more thing, Vikram: All glory is fleeting. Wright was only six years older than us when he died.