Drops of Blood

“Writing is easy. All you have to do is stare at a blank sheet of paper until drops of blood form on your forehead.” — Gene Fowler

That’s write. I mean right. When I was a kid, from about eight, I was into music. Classical mostly. I played Beethoven, Mozart, and Bach on the piano. When I was eighteen, I taught piano lessons to make extra money. And about that time, I started getting into poetry. At first, it was a hard nut to crack, a long hard slog. But before I left college, I learned that poetry could be as simple and elegant and enormously powerful as music. With economy of statement and a free heart, a poet can soar. So I wanted to be a poet.

Can’t make any money writing poetry, can we? So it’s always been a night job, competing with the TV and a thousand other distractions. But I know it takes time and work and commitment.

I’ve written a lot of poems, some stories, the first crappy draft of a novel. Thousands of business letters, memos, legal documents, technical manuals, and essays. And more recently, over 800 blog posts. But you don’t know me; you might find me in Barnes & Noble’s computer for one small book of poems. Despite what Marc Antony implies, I’m not an ambitious man.

My point is this: With all that writing I’ve done, why is it so damably hard to cough up one simple little two page resume? Does anybody else find that the most difficult thing to write on the planet? Wouldn’t you rather sit down with a legal pad and a sharp #2 pencil and hammer out your own eulogy?

Later tonight, I’ll be re-posting the draft first chapter of the novel. I know some of you have been getting anxious about that.

Turkey Acompli

Well, that’s that. A holiday goes by pretty fast once it shows up, doesn’t it? I’ve always thought of a holiday as a flashbulb, catching a moment of kodachrome, leaving a gray semi-dark behind it.

Flashbulb is an archaic term. Back in my day, we didn’t have electronic flash yet, let alone digital cameras. You went to the store and bought film and flashbulbs. Well, it’s romantic, but that stuff didn’t work too well, did it?

Mom cooked a fantastic meal. All the trimmings. Wonderful. I dozed off watching football, despite drinking coffee. Same as it ever was.

I was thinking this evening about how thankful I am to live in such a great country, one of the best. It’s like an old and dear grandfather to me. And like so many of our venerable older folks, it’s opinionated, confused, sometimes smelly after a long day, and in dim light often in need of a little helping finding its way.

God bless.

Happy Thanksgiving

I tried to post this Wednesday night, but Blogger was hosed…

Well, here it is, the eve of Thanksgiving. My memory is working overtime tonight, and … well, it’s making me a little sad. I miss my Grandparents. I loved them very much and they loved me. What more can you ask in life than love like that? I miss some little dogs too. I’m looking forward to Thanksgiving with my folks tomorrow. I’m sure it will be great, but I miss the way it was. Can’t be helped; no fault of mine.

Hey Joe, if you’re reading this, here’s a photo for you. Wish you were here.

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Earlier this year, my brother Joe and I were driving on a road in Auburn, CA, and were stopped by those turkeys. “None shall pass.” We were stopped there for a good 10 minutes, while they strutted and posed in unison, then finally danced off into the brush. Hope they’re not sitting in somebody’s oven tonight, which is unlikely as they were wild, not gobbling around in a Butterball warehouse. (For the record, I have no problem with the fact that a Butterball reposes in Mom’s oven tonight. I like turkey.)

Here’s a photo for the rest of you.

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Earlier this evening, I was hanging out at Vons, waiting for my Dad to emerge with some yellow onions for Mom’s stuffing, and just felt like taking a picture. It was a beautiful twilight, don’t you think? Then my cell phone rang. It was Mom and she needed Cool Whip. Dad couldn’t hear his cell in the store, over the din of gobblers. So I had to wade in. Once more into the breach.

My wish for you, if you chose to accept it, is a day of peace tomorrow. May nothing explode in your kitchen. May no one by injured watching football in your living room. May you have just enough pie and thryptophan to doze into the afternoon and worry about nothing.

And may the spirits of all those you’ve loved and lost, who’ve shared your days of football and food — whether at your table or under it — be with you in happy memory.

Progress

Human progress is neither automatic nor inevitable. Even a superficial look at history reveals that no social advance rolls in on the wheels of inevitability. Every step toward the goal of justice requires sacrifice, suffering, and struggle; the tireless exertions and passionate concern of dedicated individuals. Without persistent effort, time itself becomes an ally of the insurgent and primitive forces of irrational emotionalism and social destruction. This is no time for apathy or complacency. This is a time for vigorous and positive action.

— Dr. King

Turning, turning

I’m writing tonight. Here’s a little W.B. Yeats…

The Second Coming

Turning and turning in the widening gyre

The falcon cannot hear the falconer;

Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;

Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,

The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere

The ceremony of innocence is drowned;

The best lack all conviction, while the worst

Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand;

Surely the Second Coming is at hand.

The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out

When a vast image out of “Spiritus Mundi”

Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert

A shape with lion body and the head of a man,

A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,

Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it

Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.

The darkness drops again; but now I know

That twenty centuries of stony sleep

Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,

And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,

Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

Seasonally Effected

So I got up kinda late; I won’t be specific, and you don’t really care. I spent a while at the computer, took my Sunday shower, and took Tasha over to play with Happy about noon. Did some reading, got a little exercise on Mom’s treadmill, had lunch downtown, checked my e-mail again, and went out on the deck Dad built. Could not believe my eyes … Look!

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See what I mean? Where the hell does that sun think it’s going in the middle of the day? That big yellow thing has an unnatural affection for those trees lately. I don’t even know what those trees are called – big, hormonal bushes really – but I want them to quit dragging the sun down before the day has half a chance to amount to something. I’ve got woolgathering to do, and I darn well need someplace warm, clean and well-lighted to do it.

You can’t leave these celestial bodies – not to mention abstract entities – alone for a minute anymore. Miscreants.

Credit Where Credit is Due

File this one under Gosh, I wish I could like this guy. I thought it was very cool, the way Bush waded in and got hold of his Secret Service agent. Probably the biggest cajones he’s evidenced since he climbed up on the fire engine at the WTC. (Landing on the aircraft carrier doesn’t count, for any number of reasons not germain to the point.) The point is that Bush may be many things, including a lousy president, but he’s no effete imperial dandy.

Way ta git-r-done, Dubya.

Logging the Sierra Nevada

Recordnet.com News Link

The Forest Service plan for the Sierra Nevada will allow 3 times as much logging as in 2001. They’re trying to reduce fires. Well, that makes sense: they won’t burn up if you’ve already chopped them down. But I wonder if there’s any other motivation for this approach? $$$

Organizations such as Sierra Nevada Forest Protection Campaign and Earthjustice are planning legal action.