
Back in 1976, I went to Santa Barbara for a reading and lecture by a monk and writer named William McNamara. The occasion was the publication of his book, “The Human Adventure: Contemplation for Everyman.” I came away with a copy of this book, which now rests here beside my computer. I am a bit concerned that its structure may not survive its first opening in a long time: it is brittle. (It was still the 1970s when last I opened it.) I note that the cost, printed on the cover, was $1.95; the hardcover was originally $3.95.
As three decades and change have flickered by like magic lantern hummingbirds, I have often quoted – apparently misquoted – the admonition of this book to live my life, “steeped in radical amazement.” Here’s what this brittle little book really says:
It is this spiritual life, as well as my prayer life, of which contemplation is the highest expression. It is that life itself, fully awake, fully active, fully aware that it is alive. It is a life grounded in radical amazement, steeped in wonder, and full of awe, immersed as it is in mystery and engaged in intercourse with God. Contemplation is, above all, the loving awareness of God, the invisible, transcendent, and infinitely abundant source of everything.
Over thirty years, and I keep coming back to this, to one afternoon in a church when I was 15, to one man from the woods of Nova Scotia. I remember, without risking damage to later pages, that he lived in a log hermitage with his dog and ate oatmeal at dawn. I have remembered many times to try to find that amazement in the short days of my finite life. Perhaps more important, I’ve kept watch for a vision of that amazement – the wish to perceive it – in others.
Last week, a friend told me how much he likes the word amazement; I believe I see that wish in him. And in the past few days, I’ve found it without a doubt in the newest blog in my blogroll, camera-obscura. Anyone who dances with her horses is truly living steeped in wonder.
The dance along the artery
The circulation of the lymph
Are figured in the drift of stars
Ascend to summer in the tree
We move above the moving tree
In light upon the figured leaf
And hear upon the sodden floor
Below, the boarhound and the boar
Pursue their pattern as before
But reconciled among the stars.
— TS Eliot, Four Quartets