Exitus Acta Probat?

Check out the new seal of the Dept of Justice, at a blog called Uggabugga.

      Speaking of Justice, I’m thinking I need to sue somebody over this. Now don’t go just clicking on that link without due consideration. It scared the shit out of me. It’s a post on BoingBoing that links to another blog post, linking to a video. It’s supposed to be a German car commercial in which the filmmakers spotted a mysterious ghostly vapor following a car down the road, and were too spooked to use the film. That’s the premise. Watch it… at your own risk. I’m not kidding; I’m trying to find my pulse.

      Wishes Come True

      Well I got my wish. It’s evening. The day as such is over. I was sitting around this afternoon, bored, wishing the day would end so I could settle into the evening at home, in the dark, with the computer and the TV and the dog. And here it is. Feels like the day lasted maybe three hours, tops.

      I remember being warned as a child – by Mom or Grandma, I’m not sure – not to wish my life away, being in a hurry for time to pass and to grow up. None of us has the promise of tomorrow, Grandma used to say. And she was right. But every now and then, I make this same mistake.

      Click Permanent Link for the full post, including a poem for today.
      I wrote this back in 1997 or 1998…

      Hard Night of Poetry

      I have mastered the wasting of light.

      The day is avocados

      sliced

      and browning on a plate.

      The poor embarrassed moon is tired

      of hiding in her flannel clouds.

      Her soft October light

      has spread itself across my bed.

      The stars are ashamed.

      The neighbor’s cat avoids

      my sinful fence.

      I write poems by discretion

      of solitude.

      The pencil sharpener grinds

      like judgment.

      Soon the sun will struggle up

      diffused through my canopy

      of steam. Skateboards will

      clatter out

      waking the gutters

      tossing back the leaves

      like tiny silk sheets.

      The Dark Side

      “Remember, a Jedi’s strength flows from the Force. But beware. Anger, fear, aggression. The dark side are they. Once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny. Luke… Luke… do not… do not underestimate the powers of the Emperor or suffer your father’s fate you will. Luke, when gone am I… the last of the Jedi will you be. Luke, the Force runs strong in your family. Pass on what you have learned, Luke. There is… another… Sky… walker.”

      –Yoda

      Our Discontent

      Friend Erik pondering Time, wondered about the source of this:

      Where does discontent start? You are warm enough, but you shiver. You are fed, yet hunger gnaws you. You have been loved, but your yearning wanders in new fields. And to prod all these there’s time, the Bastard Time.

      — John Steinbeck, Sweet Thursday

      I hadn’t seen that in years, but it sure rings true, doesn’t it?

      Daze of the Comment

      Are there still any Web sites out there that aren’t blogs? I’ve been kind of caught up in blogging lately, so I wouldn’t know. There must be a few. I e-mailed a friend the other day. A very smart, savy tech professional, hosts his own site on his own server and stuff. I asked him if he was into blogging yet. He didn’t know what blogging was; he’d heard of it, just hadn’t investigated yet. I was suprised, but I sort of envied him. He has a hot tub. Is it just me?

      Anyway, tonight I can’t seem to get comfortable. I’ve had too much caffeine today, and I’m peaking on sensory overload. I went and laid down on my sofa; no TV, no music, nothing to read or write on. I just laid there for a few minutes, wondering what it would be like to sleep in my living room. I’ve dozed off in there, but never spent the night. My brother did for a while. My second bedroom is an office, so he had an Aero bed in living room. I think it must be a pretty good space for sleep. Two big windows collect the ocean breeze.

      The longer I laid there, the more words began to appear like hummingbirds and form themselves into sentences, and this very post insisted itself upon my tired brain. Which is normal. I’m a poet, a writer; been into it for many years. What I’m not sure is normal is this drive to publish my thoughts in a matter of seconds, for all of you to see. I enjoy it, it certainly as it’s applications, not the least of which is keep the traditional media from becoming complacent. But is it sane for those of us not pushing breaking news and innuendo?

      I remember I used to spend hours on the financial sites, in the days before the blog. I remember back before that, I’d watch TV and then spend hours writing poetry in a leather journal with a fountain pen; in the days of the comet. Ever read HG Wells?

      The Man Who Wrote in the Tower

      I SAW a grey-haired man, a figure of hale age, sitting at a desk and writing.

      He seemed to be in a room in a tower, very high, so that through the tall window on his left one perceived only distances, a remote horizon of sea, a headland, and that vague haze and glitter in the sunset that many miles away marks a city. All the appointments of this room were orderly and beautiful, and in some subtle quality, in this small difference and that, new to me and strange. They were in no fashion I could name, and the simple costume the man wore suggested neither period nor country. It might, I thought, be the Happy Future, or Utopia; an errant mote of memory, Henry James’s phrase and story of “The Great Good Place” twinkled across my mind, and passed and left no light.

      The man I saw wrote with a thing like a fountain pen, a modern touch that prohibited any historical reference, and as he finished each sheet, writing in an easy flowing hand, he added it to a growing pile upon a graceful little table under the window. His last done sheets lay loose, partly covering others that were clipped together into fascicles.

      Clearly he was unaware of my presence, and I stood waiting until his pen should come to a pause. Old as he certainly was he wrote with a steady hand. . . .

      Ah well, it’s all a matter of balance, you know. Wells was a man a bit ahead of his time; I’m a man a bit behind my own. And since no one takes old bread and goes out to feed the birds anymore, there are bound to be bubbles of unused, surplus Being and unhinged Time floating here and there. I just hit a tough one that doesn’t want to pop. Worse comes to worse, I’ll flip out the lamps and light a candle. I still have my fountain pens, and motes of memory.

      Happy’s Home

      Little Happy has had a rough couple of days. She had a hysterectomy, spent the night the hospital, then came home to find that she can’t jump up on the big, soft, comfy places where she likes to sleep.  But she came through alright, thanks to God.

      Time

      When I’m alone, I listen to water.

      My brother sleeps.

      My dog sleeps. I am alone.

      The moon is full, and the sky

      is full of sleeping jets. I’m here

      by myself, beloved, alone.

      Time is running out. I sit

      on the bed, alone, waiting.

      It will come for me. Time will

      not forget me, leave me.

      It waits behind the door

      until I’m alone. It sleeps

      in the sink. Tick-tock,

      it drips all night. Time hides

      in shadows through the dappled

      afternoon, sleeps and stretches

      like a cat. I smell it in exhaust,

      in fruit cut yesterday,

      in my shampoo. I wait

      by myself for time to emerge

      from my dusty luggage, from

      folded sheets, from long blades

      of exhausted grass.

      Kyle Kimberlin

      August 30, 2004

      2nd Draft November 11, 2004

      Happy Day

      Today was my Mom’s birthday. Happy Birthday, Mom! (Mom doesn’t actually read the blog, as far as I know, but what the hay.)

      Mom & Dad’s little dog Happy had surgery today. She’s spending the night at the vet’s, and should be home by lunchtime tomorrow. I hope she’s doing alright, resting comfortably.

      Happy is about nine, my best guess. When came to live with my Grandma several years ago, the previous owner gave assurances that she had been spayed. So that little bit of information went down in her medical chart. It became persuasive history despite the facts, sort of like Bush’s Guard service.

      When Grandma went into the nursing home, and Mom & Dad adopted her, I called the vet to make sure Happy was spayed. I’m a verbal advocate of spaying and nuetering pets, and God knows we wouldn’t want her getting pyometra. I was assured she was all fixed up.

      A few weeks ago, Happy started lactating. Imagine our surprise. False pregnancy. So after a battery of lab tests, the little ragamuggin finally got spayed today. And had her teeth cleaned. She’s going to be really pissed off when she wakes up.